The Burnout
Hola. It’s been 6 days since I published a blog, I know I broke the chain which is a massive gap indeed. Even now I did it all by myself. A lot of things happened within this span of 1 week, went into depression, lack of confidence, there was no learning, no podcasts or blogs, to sum up, it was a complete mess.
People reading my blogs and following me know how fond I am towards pushing myself and doing crazy challenges. Nothing new I failed again but this time with a massive burnout. Also, I was suffering from a sleep disorder that keeps me awake throughout the night all these kinds of stuff piled up altogether.
Rough time indeed, the reason I stopped writing and recording podcasts is that somewhere deep inside me there was a feeling kinda revolving inside my head saying pushing myself to write or record will create more hate and discomfort which eventually make me quit these two activities. And I don’t want that.
So took a break doesn’t matter if the chain is broken or not but quitting wasn’t an option for me, never regardless whatever the situation is. I think taking a break was a fair option and really helped in fact to polish my thoughts. Thus, I always predicted something like this would happen at some point in my journey and it will again. The more I seek discomfort and make stupid choices I am all in for paying the consequences.
On the other hand, was really frustrated about my writing lol. But you know, the world improves one wrong step at a time, and being wrong is a part of life. What I learned from this really matters to me. Am I gonna stop doing crazy challenges?
Nope.
But from now on prioritizing tasks will be the main concern when I am onto doing something new. Does it really matter? If yes, will then write it on my checklist, and at the times when the answer turns out to be no negligence is the only answer.
You only learn through experiments. Life isn’t a palm reading you can’t predict what’s yet to come rather we can estimate and work towards it.